I don't mind if people don't understand. It just bugs me when they don't try. 'Cause to me there are very few things more important than [trying] to understand the people around you, 'cause people are amazing creations of God.
But by that time a sort of thought was forming into an idea and into a resolution. I'm not going to stop being me, I ain't gonna stop being joyful 'cause someone's wearing me out. I'm not going to let people wear me out. I'm not going to let myself get worn out. Everything's a choice.
When your places and things, and people even, are taken away from you you don't need to be broken. I believe everything is a choice. When everything is taken away there are still left those things which "no man can take away"*: your mind, heart, imagination, dreams; God. I know that for myself that's all I need to be happy. To be joyful. And it's just a choice.
So when I get tired and when I get frustrated I'm just going to close my eyes and ask my God whom I love to please help me 'cause I need help. It's a choice but I don't have the strength to make it on my own.
Honestly, I think that is the essence of my existence. I want to be happy and I don't have it in me to be so on my own (and who does?), so dear God please help me 'cause I know you're good.
I want to be me, and I don't want being me to depend on things or people. ... Did you ever feel that way?
* "...There are certain things that once you have/No man can take away/No wave can wash away/No wind can blow away/And now they're about to be mine!/No tide can turn away/No fire can burn away/No time can wear away..." from This Is One of Those Moments from Yentl by Barbra Streisand